Getting there.
I am so fucked with this MA chapter though. I have precisely zero motivation or energy to get it done. I already know that what works for me is to just allow my writing to be shitty; I’ve done it before and every time I’ve done it it has worked. Every single time. I just lost that perspective with this chapter and, as a result, slipped back into my perfectionist habits and anxious procrastination, and now I have run out of time to write a bad chapter.
Well, I can deal with that tomorrow. Tonight, I have finished the second chapter of my shitty YA werewolf novel, which I never thought I would be able to find a way to do that was not incredibly dull and boring and passive. Honestly, it was hard enough to do it this way. I wonder if that’s the anxiety medication I’ve started taking effect; apparently it can make it harder to be creative. Whatever that means. I honestly think that sounds like a load of crap, but on the other hand it would be nice to be able to blame my future creative slumps on drugs.
I still have over 11k words to write by the 30th; I can do it, but I don’t think I can. I have to get this MA chapter written. But I am definitely going to finish this novel. I am so close now. I just have one more tricky chapter to contend with, and once I work out how to deal with it … I mean, it’s pretty much revision time after that.
Shit. I’ve almost finished another novel.
That is pretty awesome.
Vevacha 