Boredom ritual

I have nothing to follow that up with, except to say that I really need to get me one of those.

And that’s pretty much it. I tried to write something today but all that came out were notes; there’s still plenty of daylight left (okay maybe not plenty it is winter here), and I’m going to try and devote the next however many minutes it takes to getting really fucking bored. No music – I’m realising that I use music to keep myself “engaged” in the same way that I use World of Warcraft to feel “engaged” – no videogames, no little notepad to scribble shit down in, no phone, even though it is totally blowing up and I will be letting literally millions of people down by not immediately responding to their textual communications. Just go and sit somewhere and just sit somewhere. I need to get incredibly fucking bored.

I mean do I need to feel like doing something to do it? No, I don’t, but …

This is getting too deep; boredom now, thinking later. If it works I’m sure you’ll hear about it.


Other things

So I’ve been doing writing lately. Writing what? Notes, mostly, though also incrementally advancing a couple of stories. None of them have gripped me enough to make me want to carry on through with them, and I think there’s something in that. I have gotten pretty good at developing nice, solid premises in a very short amount of time, but what I’ve recently learnt is that I don’t want to follow through. It’s just … too easy. This from the guy who keeps saying how much he loves convention; look, I do love convention, but thus fat I don’t love writing it through to completion. And I think it’s simply because the ideas that make me want to write are the ideas that only come afterwards, the ones that come after you start writing the damn thing and getting a feel for it in practice. So notes and incremental advancements in several projects is fine with me.

Also writing statistics and abilities for units in a real-time-strategy game I will possibly turn into a board game because I have no connections, money or technical know-how to turn it into a videogame.

It’s all writing. It all counts.

I have been in a slump though; not a writing slump, just a general slump that affects my writing as well, because that’s what slumps do. Thankfully I had a Neil Gaiman article pop up on facebook and tell me that he recommends getting bored in order to get inspired and, like, yeah, it works really well. I know this from experience. I need to go do that. It’s so easy to keep ourselves interested nowadays, with umpteen social media platforms always accessible so long as we have internet access, mobile gaming, music, texting … it’s so hard to get bored. And boredom is vital for creativity, for motivation. It lets you tap into your most urgent motives, in ways you may never have considered – including the most direct way. Some people don’t consider that.

So in the interests of getting away from social media dependence, I’m making a concerted effort to get through all of the books from The Book Depository that I have not yet read. I want to have them all read before semester starts; hell, I want to have them all read before February. And I’m going to write about them as well. I don’t know if the word “review” is going to be relevant; I guess I’ll see when I get around to it.

Plans are good.

The books are, in order of my seeing them on my bookshelf (not in the order I will read them, because I don’t know what order that will be):

  • P.C. Hodgell, The God Stalker Chronicles
  • Garth Nix, Clariel
  • Kristen Cashore, Graceling
  • Tamora Pierce, Alanna
  • Kelley Armstrong, Bitten
  • Lev Grossman, The Magician’s Land

I’m a little surprised there aren’t more …

Hodgell gets done first simply because I’m already reading it. It’s still good, and it’s making me want to know what happens next, not because I’m “hooked” but because I actually care. It’s been a while since I felt this way for a story, and I’m grateful for it.

Part of me also wants to finally get around to writing that Vampire Academy review, but … it’s just been so long, and my opinions have changed since I finished the series. I feel like I’d have to talk about the whole series. Which I could well do. But not anytime soon.

So yeah. That’s my tentative plan to get back to boredom, weaning myself off social media by reading books that I paid money to own instead of being a smart person and getting them from the library. And I’ll keep writing my stuff and see where it goes, if anywhere.